I feel like many bloggers have a dirty little secret that really isn’t a secret – nobody’s perfect. But it’s hard to put yourself out there and shine a light on your shortcomings. That’s not something you really want to draw attention to. But really, those imperfections are the things that I struggle with on a day-to-day basis.
I have some really terrible eating habits. Not to mention, a huge sweet tooth and peanut butter addiction. When my husband is out of town, I often eat copious amounts of cookie dough rather than making a real dinner. I seem to go through phases where I get really into cooking, and then I burn out and don’t cook much for several weeks. Good thing I don’t have any kids and my husband knows how to fend for himself in the kitchen. Now if only I could get him to cook a meal for us once in a while…
I have grown to love my body as it is, however, that doesn’t stop me from looking in the mirror and sometimes thinking about how I would look and feel 10 pounds lighter (okay, if we’re being honest, 18). I’m a perfectly healthy weight for my height, but I’m at the upper end of a healthy weight, and could be in much better shape than I really am. I know this. But it’s a matter of “happy” weight versus “ideal” weight. I can maintain my current weight with little to no effort. This is my body’s “happy” weight. Could I work harder and be in better shape? Sure. But the question is how much harder do I want to work and what am I willing to give up along the way?
Also, I love sleep. Given the choice of an extra 30 minutes of sleep, or waking up early and getting my workout in, I choose sleep.
I’m not perfect. Nobody is. But what makes me stronger is how I choose to tackle those challenges. Some days I do a better job than others. I’m still learning what works and doesn’t work for me. I’m still trying new ways to challenge and motivate myself. Some things that I try are a success, and some are a complete and total failure. But I’ll never know unless I try, right? Heck, the whole reason I started this blog in the first place was to keep track of my thoughts and actions as I trained for my first marathon. And now here I am, a year and a half down the road, four marathons trained for, two completed (stupid injuries and illness…), and just about to begin training for the next round of marathons (I’ve got a couple planned for 2012). I’ve come a long way in that year and a half. But I still have a long way to go in search of what works best for me. So I’ll keep on trying things. Some will work, and some won’t. And in the end, I’ll be a better athlete because of it.