I don’t know what to write.  The past several months have been a mess of wanting to train and wanting to do other things.  And unfortunately, the other things always seem to win.  I’m sitting here, just over 11 weeks out from Lake Placid, and I’ve barely done a thing.  Instead, I feel disgustingly out of shape, and I’ve gotten completely frustrated with myself.  Now I’m just trying to play catch-up and hope that I can scrape by.  I’m a terrible cyclist on hills, and I’m so worried about making the bike cutoff times.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Get it together, you dummy!

Outside of training (or a complete lack thereof), things have been really good.  Busy, but good.  There are a lot of big changes that have happened or will be happening in the very near future (divorce, leaving my job, moving to Colorado, going back to school, etc.), and I’m just trying to stay on top of all the things that I need to take care of for everything to go smoothly.

At this point, I need to really dig in and commit to training, or decide to throw in the towel and let it go this year.  For now, I want to try.  We’ll see what happens.

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